Christmas… ho ho ho

I love Christmas. It’s the most wonderful time of the year. The week leading up to Christmas was spent shopping, eating & celebrating with new colleagues (LOVELY people) 

I was happy to spend Christmas eve at home with my family and loved ones.

 

 

Mum prepared a feast and we spent the evening laughing over ‘guitar hero’.

Who ever said Christmas has to be elaborate and fanciful? I like simple and quiet…

Help… I am turning.. 50.

Boxing day.. I made myself 2 cups of coffee and stayed in to read & blog…

I love Christmas.

This is our God

N sent me a pic of her tattoo today. It says “Relentless”

It’s been a while since I sat in the tangible overwhelming presence of God.

Relentless He pursued despite the rejections He’s faced.

He waited silently. He stood by me quietly interceding.

Not once did He force His will upon me. He did what He does best. He loved me.

Like how He freely gave it all upon that cross.

He stood by His promises while I went back on mine repeatedly.

He does not give up and till today He waits for that occasional moment when I will quieten my heart and give Him all my attention. Just so He can spend quiet time with me.

He does not demand. Nor does He impose. He puts up with my incessant complaints. Yet He still regards me as His beloved kid.

Tonight, after all those months of luke-warm interaction with Him, when He finally caught my attention, He did not rebuke me. He does that one thing- To let me know He still loves me dearly.

I always think I and the one who loves God passionately. Truth is, He is the one pursuing us relentlessly.

8 Sept 2009

Was on the way home from work. Came across a short para and penned down my thoughts…

I imagine there are people waiting for people with the maturity to balance ideals and reality, to prioritize what is important (eternal impact) and what isn’t; to admit the possibility that others may sometimes have a point despite having different opinions.

They may not always understand my beliefs and values but they recognize the difference between responsibility and irresponsibility and between those things that last and those that do not.

They are out there, waiting for us to catch up with them.

They are people with needs. Am I willing to take a step back and focus on them?

wow wow wow

10 months into the crazy year, I am looking at moving into a new role, new company.

Too much has happened in the last 3 yrs.. oh I mean months.

Lessons learnt..or not. new friends, new job, new commitments, new directions.

I am thankful, I am expectant. I am scared but I am hopeful at the same time.

Flesh’s been put to test and this particular verse has been my saving grace.

1 Chronicles 29:12 “Wealth and honor come from You; You are the ruler of all things. In Your hands are strength and power to exalt and give strength to all ”

I don’t want to repeat my mistakes. If i keep looking to the nature i.e. people around me , and compare, I will never be contented.

I know deep down, there’s more to life than security, possessions…

work is a chore

“work is work when u feel like you hate to do it”

Had a good rest over the weekend. feel recharged and all. Yet on my way to work this morning, i feel myself drained of ‘energy’ again.
Been dragging my feet to work lately.

J been on holiday and times flies without his presence at work.
Things get done faster. Less stupid qns to deal with.

Experienced a hiccup with the mth NAV this week and i learnt ‘ a leader shouldnt be quick to point fingers at others.’

While we have all been enjoying the past week of ‘peace’ without J, there is this sense of dread looming over me at the thought of his return.

Morale is low. Hard to keep a positive mindset everyday. Sometimes i just dnot wish to talk about work after work. And there’s really nothing to say cos its the same issue.

I find myself not asking Him “where now” these days. just sitting here in my own corner, believing (could be indifference) that the open door will come.

It really is a choice not to let this get to me Daily.